I do believe there are life tests, of a karmic, pre-incarnation kind.
But there is this widespread concept of there being TESTS in our daily or yearly life — for example, when we claim that we’re ready for something, and crisis appear that make us feel like we are tested “by the universe” to make sure we’re ready for the new paradigm we wish to attain (or live in).
There’s an energetic explanation for this, but before I get to it, “the universe”, like some kind of cosmic parent, is not there to help us decide if we’re ready or not, nor does it send things to us, nor does it prepare us for something.
We are the universe.
I think we can be so startled by the perfection of the timing of these ‘tests’ that we tend to interpret them as some kind of divine intervention. As though we had no say in the Timing of things, since we are so disconnect to our “Time body”. (See my Time articles)
In other words, WE are the ones who pull these pre-transformation crisis out of the fabric of Cosmic Synchronicity and we don’t even know it.
It’s quite like this phenomenon that many of us experience while we do a massive clearing of our living space.
The more we think we get close to our objective, the more the little defects seem to stand out even more… we see things we didn’t notice beforehand --the dust in this corner, a stain on a wall— and we realise how much more there is to do to be truly done with our task.
The little defects didn’t suddenly appear to test our determination to get our house cleaned up.
They were there, but only as you took action towards your goal did you see them “appear”.
What works in Space works along the axis of Time also so all this is experienced sequentially in time, making the dust in the corners appear at the end of the line, but really it works the same way.
The universe doesn’t send these tests so I can PROVE to myself or anyone whether I truly am the person I say I am or want to be.
It’s more a matter of integrity.
If I am to be something, I am to be it fully.
A test is a dusty corner.
An intense dusty corner because the rest of me is already in order, poised in the new paradigm.
What accounts for the perfect timing?
I almost see a giant snap in the light of our being when we move towards a more evolved version of ourselves.
Our old parts are sticky, they know they’re about to die... Perhaps they tap into hidden superpowers, like Synchronicity, in a dire attempt to survive our cleaning spree.
I like to speak to the parts of myself that are stuck in these old patterns, I take full responsibility in how I may seek to perpetuate my misery, exploring the ways in which it might serve me, in order to fully alchemise my shadows.
I don’t want my life game to be a journey from A to Z, from one point in time to another ‘in the future’. I want my life to flourish from the inside out, right here, right now, in circular time.
I don’t want to be the hero who wins her trials, I want to be the hero who is born perfect (thus cannot fail).
In this way, trials and wins are just waves in the sea of life. I am not the boat, nor the destination, nor the journey.
You and I, we know what we are, deep deep down.